October 23, 2011 Who do I feel like?
Not feeling like my self today. If I am finding self, how can I feel like my self if I don’t know what self feels like anymore? Step outside of my self. The best thing I can do is not try to explain it. A Universe asking who made me? Slow down, easy does it.
I’m standoffish yet approachable, strong and fragile. I am smart but a child to your vision. Who do I feel like….Me
I’m not qualified to judge my self for I can neither create life or duplicate it. -Ginyar
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October 19, 2011 Food…Do you appreciate or medicate?
I was thinking today? What is this obsession to be thin about? For me it isn’t about being model thin or trying to fit into this socio-acceptable weight. Me being heavier is usually a response to not practicing a balanced diet. I am not making healthy eating choices based on what is suitable for me. When I make healthier choices, I feel and function better. Being conscience of what I eat and the reason for eating certain foods is important, appreciate not medicate.
Eating veggies, complex carbs, starches, fruits,proteins and occasional treats is the regimen that functions and makes my life fulfilling.
Be conscience of what you eat: appreciate don’t medicate. -Ginyar
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October 15, 2011 I don’t have to figure out the rest of my life to-day.
Anger. (n) A strong feeling of displeasure or hostility.
I am so angry. Think of stars bursting out in the galaxy rushing towards something, white specks of dusk flowing over black void, space. A long sigh escapes my chest…huhh uhhh heh, breath leaves my body with a thickness of moisture locking onto the air. A mist forms and collapse. Close your eyes and stand.
Dion: Their is someone in your way.
Me: Who ?
Dion: You….
I don’t have to figure out the rest of my life to-day.
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October 13, 2011 Moving forWard…
Moving forward is painful. Some people who you want to hold onto may leave your life. I am powerless over people, places and things in my life. I can’t control when they will leave or how long they will stay in my life. I saw a man today while at the serving counter in Starbuck’s. He was sleek, warm, stylish and content. All the things that I long to be. An idea came to me.
I can have all those things for my life; If I work hard. -Ginyar
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October 11, 2011 Where do I go from here?
F*&k…I replasped, leaving it to you to judge on what. Where do I go from here? Standing here above gravel and sand, do I chose resentment and get what i’ve always got? Or chose to move towards faith? The triangle of self-obsession is resentment, anger and fear. I resent the past, angry with the present and fear the feature. I can’t erase yesterday or the fact that I did not obtain my BA 5 years ago. Moving forward is not easy, but it is the only way that works. -Ginyar
“Dont’ look back” -Bliss
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October 5, 2011 Letting go kept me free
All I have this very moment is now. There is so many things that I wish I would have done up untill this point in life. From this point i own the audacity to move forward. Reliving tomorrow or further into my past doesn’t make me enjoy today. Peace and sanity are gifts. Waking each day to my life and accepting how beautiful it is and can be. The fulfillment that brings is not explainable. It can only be lived.
My perspective is what matters; Letting go keeps me free. -Ginyar
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October 4, 2011 “Beyonce I care”
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October 4, 2011 Staples for the Winter
The winter is approaching. This means layering for the gloomy days. H&M now have trentchs which make a great staple for the winer. Try with Tee-shirt and scarf or button ups with a v-neck sweater. Aslo Zara Men carry varies colors for the more confident man. – Ginyar
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September 29, 2011 Being me didn’t seem free
I will never be dark enough or light enough. My hair isn’t wooly or silk refined. My mother is of Domenican descent my father African-Cherokee, European. I somewhere trapped between worlds. What am I? Who will I be?
Confussion is not all I know. I’m human with feelings and long to grow. Do we every receive enough education? Is being internationally cultured a title or lifestyle? When I’m married with a partner will we make great fathers? When will I have the time of my life?
Recovery: return to an original state.
Truth is, enough is something I don’t have to be. In the begining, being me didn’t seem free. -Ginyar
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Ginyar Aknoton Ejiofor
